Sweet reference to Persona 5 and one of its beautiful songs. Anyway...
I've decided to let behind me all negative persons. I'll just throw them away like you throw away useless garbage. What I don't need, I just throw it to trash. No need. No use.
That's the only way to keep going in my life. Because such people are simply the death of my happiness. They hurt, they destroy, they damage your soul and neglect your feelings. They think about themselves, cause they're selfish, they're cowards. Such people, who delightfully torture others, don't deserve any kind attention. They don't deserve to be sad because of them. So I won't be sad about that awful event that happened a few weeks ago. I'll just leave it aside, far behind me.
You're the only one able to make your own choices. You're the only one able to move forward. Nobody will take decisions for you. You have to make your own. So I decide I'm gonna live a happy life. Whatever it takes. I won't let other people destroy my soul, destroy who I truly am. I'll express my pain and grief, as horrible as it may be, through Art. Because Art is the only way for me to express myself, to share my feelings with other people who will feel it and maybe try to understand it. It is an outlet to my suffering.
Sometimes, you need others' help to be able to move on and get better. It is no shame to ask for help. What is a shame is thinking you can solve everything by yourself. There are times where you need assistance. And thanks to you, to your support, to random conversations, or more intimate talks, thanks to my friends, my family, I feel better. Little by little, I am healing.
I'm sorry I seem cold now... I've changed because of what one horrible person did to me. It's one of the most traumatizing experience I've had in my life. It shook me pretty hard. But I decide that this won't weaken my life. It will only make me stronger. It will forge my shell in the strongest material.
Think positive and positive things will happen. See the life on the bright side. Even when dark times show up, don't let them down on you. Try to smile, tell yourself it will be okay, that you're not alone, and things will move on and get better. It's only up to you to decide to sink deeper or get out of the dark waters. I am out. And I'll keep my head up.
Thanks a lot to you all. I apologize to my friends for having worried them. I ask you to be patient. The Aldric you once knew will come back. But please, be patient and understanding.
I love you. I love you all so much.